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Just Be

If you want to shrink something,
you must first allow it to expand.
If you want to get rid of something,
you must first allow it to flourish.
If you want to take something,
you must first allow it to be given.
This is called the subtle perception
of the way things are.

The soft overcomes the hard.
The slow overcomes the fast.
Let your workings remain a mystery.
Just show people the results.

Chapter 36 - Tao Te Ching
Eiffle

I am behind.



So I haven't done any work for school in the last 2 weeks. We are nearly 1/2 way through with the quarter. Midterms start next week. I really do not want to drop the ball. Yeah that is the point of those pictures above. I am now online. Blogging. I am an idiot. I think that I am doing
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but time will tell it these are gambles that I can afford to make.
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Today was a good day (after I sat down and thought about it)

I car camped in the parking lot at the Norwalk Green line station. I had articles to read for my museum studies course. I had downloaded them to my desktop. I read through them and finished the last article right when my lap top ran out of juice. Lucky. I then got on the train and that was a smooth and quick ride. Lucky again.

I walked all the way to the north campus Art's library to write my one page response. I couldn't seem to connect to the internet. I tried and tried, but failed. I needed to email myself the paper so I could print it out in the library. I sort of started freaking in my mind. Our class was meeting at the Hammer for a panel discussion with employees of the museum. I need to head out since it was quite a walk to the site.

It turns out that a switch on my computer was off. So I printed out my paper and walk-trotted to the Hammer.



This is the picture on the website.(above)
This is the picture that I took below . . .





They were all interesting people. They were so engaged in their work and the museum. It felt good. They stressed that, if the museum life is what we wanted , the most important thing that we could do was to see every single exhibit in town and visit every single gallery. To attend events like openings and cafe happenings and such. They stressed that it has to be our social life. They suggested that we should take fine art courses to better understand art. It is a field where you need to be out in the world.

Oh darn. That sounds like I might have to have some fun to further my career. I might have to get a good haircute and some nice clothes (to go out in). I will need the clothes for interviews too. Oh, and the field requires for most . . . alot of travel.



Oh darn. I guess I need to take that trip next summer (2009) to Spain and Morocco. Life is so tough these days ;) Sometimes, I wonder if I am going to be caught having so much fun. Will they ever catch on?

The Alhambra in Granada, Spain (above)

Morocco (below)


Somehow, this inspired me tremendously. It justified all of my "selfish" cravings. It justified my interests. It seems a little like a dream come true.



The best thing is that they meant what they said. This is essential if I want a career in the field. These are things that I need to do if I am serious. This is the best news ever. It makes me happy.

I am so anxious to get started. It is direction. It is keeping me on my path. Also we were alerted to possible internships we could apply for at the Hammer.

Also this week the thesis finally is coming together. I finally feel like a have some real meat to grab onto. This is good news too. ***Inspiration***

After the Hammer, I rushed to my 3pm History of Spain and Portugal class. I didn't think that I was going to make it, but I jumped on the campus shuttle with Sarah Jane and I arrived maybe 1 minute late. It was all fun and chocolate (thanks to Ioana).



I now need to get on with things to do things to do, a)4 articles on Mamluk Cairo are in my future b) some quick research on possible research paper topics for the same class. This might sound like a drag, but I this is all for my favorite class, so I'm good :)
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I am at crashing point . . .

There is always so much to do. I do not think that I could ever be bored. I do not think that I found myself truely bored since maybe the mid-90's. I may find myself lonely time to time and sometime I mis-read that as boredom, but I always have something to do.

I wear myself out by my own enthusiasm for things and plans and project. I run til I am exhausted and feel disappointed that the inspiration is gone. When I think of it rationally I do not think the inspiration is gone, I think I just need to rest and do nothing (Doing nothing, no thought no action, during a manic high makes me feel . . . frustrated to tears.)

This is my dysfunction. Something I need to chill out about. I ran a good 3 days on creative adrenaline, it is okay to do nothing and take a break without feeling as if I am slacking.




BEFORE I wrote this blog



AFTER I wrote this blog
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Getting Lucky

Yesterday was lucky for me. I like when things go my way.

1. I got a “B” in 20th Century Latin American Art (this is a great relief). And an “A” in Greek art (could’ve been a “B”.)
2. My financial aid for school is in the bank (I’ll have my rent)
3. I got a check in the mail from the kids dad again (this might end up a regular thing)
4. IO. snagged the "Problems in Islamic Art" class for me.
5. I finally got the PTE number for the Mayan Art History class for the summer
6. I had 4 IM conversations going on at once tonight. That has to be lucky. Having friends to chat with is lucky.(Since I installed the thing one week ago it has already been very handy. May God bless IM-ing.
7. Comments on my blog (from friends, but I love encouragement)
8. The apartment will get clean regardless.
9. I have to work, but I still have 3 days left of Spring Break
10. Tomorrow will be my LAST Friday at Coocoo’s (I still have to work there,but NO MORE FRIDAY.
11. A friend just got a new job. Congrats and good luck. I am serious about the cigarettes.
12. Oh, Bruins basketball is part of the "Elite 8". Go Team!


Oh, this wasn't today, but a couple of days again - We are getting a puppy. Puppys are bubbles and smiles and kisses and chocolate and sunshine all wrapped in furry little packages. We don't have her yet (she is not ripe). Her name is Maxwell.
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Ahhhhh!

What a week! I only have one final left next Thursday. I have a whole week to prepare. That will be nice after feeling seriously squeezed for time the last couple of weeks. I am feeling eager to clean and get things in order. It will improve my life. Things are just to organized at the moment. I'll feeling the Japanese in me coming out. Simplicity. Accuracy. Precision.

I feel pretty good and am even looking forward to the times ahead.
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10 things that I am Thankful for Today

I was tagged by Joko, so. . . . . .
. . . here it goes.

1. Various working body parts. My eyes and hands in particular. They seem to be the essense of me. Plus I am lucky enough to be strong as an mule.


2. Blogs. I am relatively new to the phenomena, but I am so addicted (I am thankful for MySpace, Livejournal, Wordpress, Blogger, Diaryland. ) I have addressed this before, but I do write alot so this set up is very good for me. It is a creative outlet for the mass majority.

3. My family and friends. They ground me. If it wasn't for them I would surely end up running down the street in the middle of the night screaming.


4. Pizza. I had some for dinner tonight. Pizza good.


5. & 6. Freetime and my red flannel sheets. I manuveured me some spare time and I used it to hide away from the world. The nice weather the last couple of days (ooo! that #7) makes everyday feel like a Sunday afternoon. There was an easy breeze. My neighbors were home too and they were listening to some mellow tunes. I love listening to the residue of other peoples music. On Sunday afternoons everyone is home and you can hear all the sounds of free and easy time in the neighborhood. Everyday feels this way lately. Oh yeah, I lay down and wrapped myself in my red flannel sheets. I was so relaxed, I fell asleep.

8. Public transportation. In traffic clogged LA, public transportation is sometimes faster. I am lucky I thought of it as an option to driving across town. Public transportation really isn't something I usually consider. METRORAIL (bad assed) and the CULVER CITY GREEN BUS and the SANTA MONICA BIG BLUE BUSES have saved my day. Their sloggan "GO Green!"



9. I arrived to school on time even though I woke up late (this is sort of a miracle)

10. Inspiration. Thank God I am feeling things changing again. For the longest time I was in a get-nowhere-rut. Now I can feel things churning again. Bring it on, I'm ready. It is a good feeling when you wake up excited about the day ahead.


Bonus: smiles, the beach, scissors, hair dye, staplers, cellphones, second chances, people laughing, everything on the to-do list moved over to the to-did list . . . handheld fans, hamsters, petco . . . window shopping . . oh! getting in touch with an old friend - "Hi. Christy!", New babies being born - Willkommen Zachariah!. etc.